I Still.................

I say I hate you,..........................................but I still think about you.
I said I can't be your friend anymore, ........but I miss your company.
I listen to "What About Now?"..................and remember the times we spent together.
I thought I'm over you................................but apparently not.

Sometimes I still think about you, and imagine how life would have turned out to be if we got together like a real couple.
If only I was a simple girl, with a simple mind, from a family that is not so demanding......then maybe.........., maybe that would happen.
But then again there's this issue of me not being beautiful enough for you......well, I've started jogging regularly now and can feel my body slimming down.
I am still trying to make myself beautiful just for you...............why, you might ask,.........why would you do so much for someone who doesn't even love you the way you do him.
Well, I would say that this..............is a woman's love, it's my love.
Sacrificial and pure, passionate and strong. It's my love for you. My unrequited love that still burns in my heart. If only I can give this love to someone else who would love me in return too in the same way.

I pray.........................................................that one day I will finally be able to forget about you.
But seemingly, 6 years and in the running could not provide enough time for this wound of mine to heal.

I miss you and I love you....so much that it still hurts.


KAT-TUN's Promise Song.....playing in the background (earphone),
while I sit in Mclennan Library, trying to study Organic Chemistry.