A New Year to come~~~

Dearest Yamapi,

Ogenki desu ka? Gomen na~~~ I was to busy with facebook that i forgotten to write to u in SUCH a long time olredi... hehehehe......

Well, Wat can i say??? I GOTTEN DARKER!!!!!!! I mean my skin tone....but its for a good cause!!! I went K.K with family this holiday 17 Dec to 22 Dec. We were planning to go to First Borneo and SHOp TILL WE DROP!!!! (well....at least thats wat me + my sister were planning to go) But the adults wanted to go sightseeing.....so we went to see mountains and seas...... Manukan Island and Mt. K.K. The only thing enjoyable from tat was the SWIM!!!!

I swam in the ocean with fish!!! Schools of FISH!!!! It was so amazing..... i saw schools of small light blue fish and yellow fish!!! We saw a huge yellow sea cucumber and two smaller ones that are black and prickly...hehe they kept squirting water and my cousins were screaming bcoz they thought those little devils were peeing....HAHA!!!! My aunt swam further out into the ocean...and they saw hordes of colourful fishes!!!!! ANd they even had a free fish spa!!! So nice!! Ah pong.(One of my cousin from Aussie) even saw a stingray!!!! Cool man!!! If only I was POR at swimming.....then i would dare swim out there and enjoy myself....but nevermind!! I still enjoyed myself near the shore!!!!! Man, I never knew that it was so hard to swim in the ocean!!! I mean the waves are so strong that is hard to swim against it!!! hehe

2009 is coming to an end....i feel sad like i havent even started enjoying it...its like i let a lot of my chances at being happy slip away like sand grains held in my hands.........crucial times were givin up to study for my A levels .....I told myself tat i am ready to face the challenge but seemingly im not and i am getting tired.....it may be the holidays now but its only a better way of putting a STUDY LEAVE for us....its very hard for me to concentrate on studyings man!! I mean come on!!! Its christmas...and the new year....Its december....just excuses......but seriously.....its true.....

Sniff....snifff........jin + yamapi has grown up now............become hontou no otoko.............this only makes the gap between us ever further...............strange how can such utsukushi no hito exist in this world......how could someone have so much fans??? "How do they feel??? Being them???....how does it feel to be Yamashita Tomohisa or Akanisho Jin or Matsumoto Jun???" Tats something tat i could never offerr an answer to........