I just realised that I am StiLL on the battlefield.....

Dearest Yamapi-chan,

Osashiburi!! Saikin genki desu ka?

For all these years away from my old chms school, i've never realised how behind i've was standing in the race.I never seriously thought for once that my real adversary was myself..... I had to defeat myself to become a better me......I wasnt happy at all with my 'O' level results; somehow i felt that i could do better.....when i saw tze hung got like 7A1s and 1A2, I was shocked! It was a wake up call for me to start working hard from now on.

from wat i've heard (news from my dad), Bruneians who were awarded scholarships to attend American colleges were given classes from SAT teachers flown-in (imported) from Singapore.! all they have to do is go to class and pay B$400 while the government shoulders the employment fee of B$4000+ for each teachers, not including the accomodation fees, i guess... just for their professional services.!....

How LuCky!!!!

Considering these circumstanes, I who had to prepare to take the exam myself would have to work 3 times harder than them.....!!!!!! T.T

Why? u would ask that I am suddenly talking about these things...well, it seemed like the only thing i talked abt.... its my life....studying....
Anyways, well, it was because i waa awarded the "Anugerah Pelajar Cemerlang Sek-sek/ maktab-maktab kerajaan dan swasta Senegara 2008". Sounds like a mouthful eh??
Well, I got the award, yes, but compared to the other recipients for 'O' levels result, I was the 38th out of 38 o level students..... Kanashii....

So....im still on the battlefield......I was in my comfort zone for too long but i was too ignorant to think so....

Even though i gave everything i had , but i still think that its not enough..
am I stupid? or just too UN-gifted???