Grown older.......

Dearest Yamapi,

Its only been a matter of a few months time but it feels like 5 years have just past by. So much have happened....relationships changed. Perspectives and feelings changed or evolved?? Frenships formed and broken............feelings good at first but changed bad.............feeling proud and happy.......but tired and sick of my life after that......I feel so tired so wasted....too much thinking, learning, jostling of my brains and muscles...I need a break....a rest from everything...

These days I just cant keep myself away from the burning ache in my throat(my form of anger) nor could I stop the tears from falling. Even if he didnt reali say something bad...I still found myself crying while reading the msg...everything has changed I feel that I should stand on his side.......but he is doing stuff that is exactly repelling me from him...or is it her fault???

I know I didnt want to, couldnt, shouldn't but still did say that she is a VERY good actress..

Why is she doing this to me? Is it because she harbours feelings for him and hates it bcoz I am close to him?? Or is it bcoz she is keeeping a secret about me from me?? Or is it that she has gotten tired of being my best fren??? Why...!!!??? Why......I feel so heartbroken...... I think I lost a fren and I dont know y......and maybe he knows y........

LIP -SYNC is up next!!! on 11 March.... Lets just say we're going gaga....