Core of my heart.........

Dearest Yamapi,

The core of my heart.........feels like a dark, deep, gloomy enchanted forest......with roots and trees so twisted and entangled with rage, frustration, desolate and sullenness. I hate this......this........all this frustration in my heart, its clouding up my mind, tugging at my heart and
making me into a living, breathing monster..or rather ....a devoid dark space that only contained all the negative feelings that one could possess. I hate this....I hate this so much..I want to break out of it. I need someone or something to shed a shred of light into this dense forest of a heart of mine.....I don't want it to continue and soak in all the heavy negative mist that is hanging over the air.....its suffocating and ugly. With all the series of unfortunate events happening to me......I just can't stand it anymore...I HATE all THOSE WHO STAND IN MY WAY AND make ME FEEL THIS WAY.......FREaking CuRSE ALL these idiots that make my life so hard. FUck them all.....freaking idiots. Whats the meaning of all this....it doesnt let me gain anything out of this. I mean its not like some japanese series that a newbie is bullied by the superior, gets all this shit thrown at her, she tries all her might to overcome them, in the process wins the heart of some super cute guy and overcomes all obstacles and then in the end became the best in the company or field that she's in. Its different...ALL these freaking things that happen to me are random...they ave no basis. First it was the freaking internet problem, then i lost my pencil case, then now its the freaking premium bank account that had me clawing my hair off.Freaking idiots.......even sayong FUCK YOU x 10^6 is not enough....It doesnt even compensate me for all my efforts all the freaking money i've spent on getting them done and EUURRRGGGHHHHH i HATE this......I Need to scream at shout at something...AT THE SEA ...AT THE SKY>>> I NEED TO SCREAM MY LUNGS OUT...IM SO FRUSTRATED BY THIS ALREADY.....................