How many times can my heart break??

Dearest Yamapi,

I wonder how does ugly ppl ever find the destined person who loves them and cherishes them more than anything in the world??
Is such a love possible anyways in reality? Could they even hope or dream to meet someone like tat?? A love like in fushigi Yuugi or Inuyasha?? A love that can surpass time and grows stronger every passing moment every passing day......

Haizz god....help me, give me strength, give me faith to pull through coz i cant stand it anymore.....not being loved by someone......only being told by guys how they like other gurls I know, my frens or best frens in some cases....Im so sick of tat, so tired.....so sad, so heartbroken...



2 confessions, 2 rejections
1 that gave me flutters to my heart b4 i realised his true motives. in 18 months..... Men....they are more despicable than women. Hurting feelings of innocent gurls.......sniff sniff....


please, i plea.....please...... freeze this heart of mine. Let it be cold and emotionless until my destined person comes along to melt it...and set it beating again...with every beat, every breath, every thought to be for him and his for mine.......oh god....please hear my prayers...for i am heartbroken and depressed now. But i think this is physically and emotionally impossible because I am a person who thinks with my heart.....I tend to use my heart to feel and judge things....at the same time putting my heart out, exposing it to the cold harsh world....exposing my feelings to other ppl.

Im really tired now but i just have to tell you this Yamapi coz ur the only fren who would listen and not judge me by wat I am saying.

Its almost 1.30am now....

A levels exams in two weeks time.
Listening to :Bad Boys ( Alexandra Burke )
Break your Heart (Taio Cruz feat Ludacris)